Step Aside

I sent an email yesterday to my women's bible study group. I wanted to let them know we had timing for when we are leaving and to ask for prayer for our family. The pressure has begun to build up as the dates draw near. As I wrote the email, I had to check a calendar to see exactly how much time we had left. Three and a half weeks! Yep, that's right...I nearly fell out of my chair when I realized the limited amount of time I have. I immediately started freaking out even more and began to look over my lists of things to do, phone calls to make, what to pack where, etc. One of my wonderful friends in the group sent me a reply almost immediately and it stopped me in my tracks. She quoted:

Psalms 40:1-3 "I waited patiently for the Lord to help me; and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord."

I am one of the many who have seen what He can do and has done and I am truly amazed! He heal my baby girl and made her whole again. When all the doctors told us she may not walk for a year, she walked in 2 weeks. When they gave her chemotherapy set for a teenage boy instead of a fragile 2 year old girl, she got through 14 or the 16 treatments with the cancer gone. When I had no family to turn to and show me unconditional love, God provided my sister Regina to show me what that looks like. So with all that I have seen, why do I still feel the need to not let go and let God have it? Is it so hard for me to allow God to have control? The short answer is yes. I am weak and I am unworthy and Satan uses all of that against me. He hits me when I am down low and again when I am up high.

Don't worry though, God also hits me when I am high and low...He hits me with powerful lessons through Godly men and women in my life. Just like the way my friend sent this passage at just the right time. I became a member of a church for the first time in my adult life this year. That was not by accident or coincidence. He has a plan for all of us. So I am trusting His plan for my life and for this move. Three and a half weeks! If He can heal my baby of the cancer in her body, a move across the world is nothing!